| lesson #1: always trust your gut
lesson #2: letting go is the hardest fucking thing in the world when you still truly love someone.
i had a gut feeling that this would happen, and yet why do i still feel blindsided? that maybe somehow this could have been avoided, that i could have done somethin to fix it. what if? why not? this isnt what i wanted. this isnt what i planned for, but yet i want both of us to be happy, and i want this to be right. i'm scared shitless right now and don't know what to do...this is for the best...it's for the best...keep telling yourself that and it will be so. it hurts now, but smile because it happend, and make the best of what you've been given. i've learned so much and i'm thankful for even more. i just want to know now, how it's gonna be...
I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore,
Before you take a swing, I wonder what are we fighting for,
When I say out loud, I want to get out of this, I wonder,
Is there anything I'm going to miss,
How's it going to be, When you don't know me,
How's it going to be, When there is no one there to talk to,
Where we used to laugh, There's a shouting match,
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch,
A silence I can't ignore,
Like the hammock by the doorway we spent time in, swings empty,
I don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me,
I wonder
How's it going to be, When it goes down,
How's it going to be, When you're not around,
The soft dive of oblivion.
Want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion
How's it going to be? |
